Friday, December 31, 2010

Year in Review: 2010

2010 was the year that I decided to take back my life...  That I decided to stop blaming and quit making excuses, and to start seeing my weight as not only a problem, but I problem that I could- and should- take responsibility for.  I made the decision to stop using my Hashimoto's and PCOS as my inability to lose weight and to quite making my grief an excuse for eating.

One of the most interesting things of 2010 was the amount of physical activity I got in as I was training for races... and yet, no weight loss.  Not a pound.  I ran, biked, and swam several times a week, and competed in a couple of races.  Nothing.  We joked about it, but really- who works out that hard and the scale holds steady?  Someone who eats... and eats... and eats...

I could blame growing up without really giving a damn about portion control.  But let's be honest....  I'm a grown up.  I've read books and articles and know what portions look like.  I just wasnt putting a portion on my plate.  Maybe 2 or 3 or 4 portions.  And then, because I didn't want to waste the food, I would eat it.  And eat it.  And then eat some more.  And, while I was cleaning up, maybe a little more.  And then, there were the food choices. If I wanted it, I'd eat it, without a real thought as to what I was consuming.

I love to cook and I love to eat, and my weight showed it!

By September 2010, I weighed 240 pounds, which was only 10 pounds lighter than my heaviest when pregnant with Bobby and Maya (a few days prior to labor, I weighed in at 250lbs).  Being told that I carry my weight well and that I looked fine helped me see passed my obesity and it wasnt until I was in a dear friend's wedding and saw the pictures that my weight was so clearly in front of me.  I cried that day.  It wasn't embarrassing enough that my bridesmaid's dress was too tight and I had to be sewn into it.  It wasn't embarrassing enough that I couldnt wear my bra because nothing else would fit in that dress.  But looking at the pictures of all of us together...  These beautiful women, having a great time.  That's when I saw myself- and my weight.  That's when it was just too much to ignore.
at the bridal shower in July
at the wedding in September

When I look back on the pictures, I barely recognize myself.  It's hard to look at that image and know it is you, but not be able to really "see" it.  And, frankly, hearing how "great" I look for having twins or how I "carry the weight well" only gave me an excuse to ignore the fact that I was 240lbs and looking at 250lbs in the face.  That I wore a size 18 pants (and wrote it off that, at least I wasnt in the size 20 pants I was in when I was working or pregnant).  That I couldnt shop outside of Lane Bryant because most stores didnt have clothes that fit.  Seeing the wedding pictures made me acutely aware that I had to take responsibility for myself and for the choices I was making.  They also gave me the opportunity to look at the how of "how did I get here".

Part of it is my health concerns.  Yes, Hashimoto's and PCOS do influence the body and how the body metabolizes.  HOWEVER, it just makes the body's job so much harder when you put crap into it on top of that.  Yes, they (and Hashimoto's especially) do make it hard to get up and get moving sometimes and, as my DJD gets worse and I seem to be moving closer to early arthritis, it can be very painful to wake up.  But none of these things make making healthier choices impossible.  In fact, they should be a catalyst for those healthy choices!  Less weight=less joint pain.  Better foods=more energy.  These are good things!

Part of it is grief.  When we hurt emotionally, it is so much easier to try and dull that pain with something.  My drug of choice has been food.  When it hurts, bake a cake... And eat it.  Lots of it.  When you feel so let down by your body, show it who's boss by making a huge dinner... and stuffing yourself until you can hold no more.  When it hurts and you'd rather crawl under a rock than breathe but you are out with friends and want to show them that you're okay, order a delicious and decadent meal... and finish the whole thing, then follow it up by the biggest designer coffee they make (and a piece of cake!).  But it doesn't work.  The emptiness, the heartbreak... It's still there.  It may be under a layer or two or three of fat... But it's still there.  And it still hurts just as much.

Part of it, as well, are the unhealthy habits I brought into adulthood.  We all know the teenage syndrome- where you can eat nothing but crap and drink soda and coffee and not gain a pound.  I was there.  It was great.  (Was it?  Looking back, my memory says yes, but I honestly can't imagine that as "great" for my body).  I was athletic and didnt really worry about weight gain.  I ate what I wanted, drank what I wanted, and all was good.  I also saw my mom yoyo with her weight and inherited some very bad body image habits.  I saw how she was never happy with herself and saw herself as fat.  My mom is beautiful.  Regardless of her weight, she always has been.  But kids and life got in the way and her very fit body became the typical "mom" body because she didnt/wasnt able to/etc focus on herself for more than a second at a time.  And that led to self loathing.  And, at times, putting the entire family on a diet of some sort.  There were times when she would try to force portion control on us, but, for the most part, people just took multiple helpings.  It wasn't eat until you aren't hungry or until you are satiated; it was eat until you were stuffed so full you couldnt walk.  And, when we did eat together, it was eat quickly so you can get on about your day.  It was tough raising kids and working hard to be the PTA mom/working mom/stay at home mom- all rolled into one.  And, as such, I saw how much little time she gave herself in all that.  And her body image suffered.  And, growing up in the southern tradition of fried foods and fatty foods, her body itself suffered too.  As a woman, I think we see our moms (and female role models) and we subconsciously fall into their body traps as we are confronted with the societal view of what is beautiful (perhaps over what is healthy).

Seeing this all clearly, for the first time in a long time, made me realize that I dont want Bobby and Maya to see the self loathing I have.  I dont want them to take it on themselves.  I dont want them to subconsciously bring those issues to their own bodies.  It's not fair to them.  And it isn't fair to me either.  We all deserve better than this.  Looking at them gave me the push to make their lives better by giving them a mother who is going to be around to raise them... By giving them a mother who is a healthy example.

Of course, it does come back to weight too.  I dont want to be fat.  I dont want to be obese or overweight.  I dont want to be unhealthy (and unhappy).  Our lives are so limited; I want to live each day to its fullest and have no regrets.  There is so much I can't change; for the things that I can change, I want those changes to be positive ones and ones that benefit myself, my family, and my community.

And so, here we are...  3 months into this change.  And (31) pounds lighter.  31 pounds... That's a toddler.  Gone.  Down to a Lane Bryant 14 in pants (and those are loose).  It translates into around a 16 in regular pant sizes (from the 20 I was, since I was in LB 18s).  But they are loose and I have to look into buying pants at a "regular" store.   Emotionally, I still weigh 240 and I'm still ashamed of my weight.  But, looking at my body... Looking at this body...
the day after Christmas, 210lbs
... I see the light at the end of the tunnel.  I see the positive example that I want to be.  And that is a beautiful thing.

So, what am I doing?  What is different about what I was doing versus the me of today?

I'm exercising.  I run or bike or swim or do yoga or ab work at least 2-3 times (usually 3 or more to be honest!).  It started with me barely being about to bang out a quarter of a mile without thinking I'd die.  Now, I can easily run 4-5 miles and have done well over 6 miles.  With winter, I think I'm going to make 5 miles my "long" run and bring it up in the spring, but I'm out there.  And that is a big deal for me.

I'm exercising portion control.  I know my weakness and, one of them, is self control.  I know that I needed to teach and relearn how to control my food impulses.  Part of that has been dropping full calorie soda and switching completely to Coke Zero.  And, if I'm out and there isnt any Coke Zero, then it's water.  I also have been drinking water during the day.  I buy the 100 calorie packs and that is what I eat, and then I'm done.  I eat Lean Cuisine meals for my lunches.  I look at serving sizes and calories per gram and I make better choices based on that.  I eat a bit and tell myself that I can have more in half an hour/an hour/whenever if I am still hungry but that, right now, it's time to walk away.  I have talks with myself: "Are you hungry?  No??  Then get out of the kitchen." "Are you hungry? Yes? Just a little bit?  Then have a 100c pack and, if you are still hungry in an hour, we can reevaluate."  "Are you hungry? Not really but you are having a hankering for something sweet?  Wait half an hour and, if the urge is still there, have a 60c pudding or a 100c pack."  Sometimes I forget I want the sweet taste.  Other times, I'm counting down the half hour (or whatever time I've set.)  If I need a snack, I have the snack.  But it is in proportion.  I know that it is too easy for me to just eat a bag of chips.  So, I dont have the big bags right now.  Maybe in the future, it will be easier.  I am testing myself.  I keep the M&M bowl that Peter likes handy.  And I walk by it.  Or, if I decide that I'm going to have some, I eat 5 (55 calories) and move on.  It's hard.  It's really hard sometimes.

When we go out to eat, I try to scope out the restaurant beforehand so I know what I am going to eat and can figure out calories/portion size, etc.  It's tough, especially when I know the temptation will be there.  But it's okay.  And, surprisingly, I'm enjoying food MORE.  Because I savor it and I am really getting up close and personal with the flavors.  I dont feel deprived.  I feel satiated.  It's a new feeling... A good one.

When I need to, I ask for help.  As embarrassing and hard as not just knowing my weight was but actually speaking it outloud to a few select folks, I knew that I needed to tell Peter and talk to him openly.  I needed to let him know that, while I appreciate his belief that I am beautiful, I didnt feel that way inside and why.  I needed him to know what would help me and what would send me over the edge (when he thought he was "helping").  I needed him to know that sometimes I might call on him, not because I needed him to "fix it" but because I needed a voice on the other end of the phone, a voice that would tell me it was okay and that I was stronger than the urge to eat.  I told Sarah because, as my workout partner and best friend, I knew I would need someone to vent to on the bad days and someone to celebrate the good days with.  And, there have been times that I've needed to call on them.  And just talk.  And they've helped.  Their support has made ALL the difference, especially during the hard times.

I've also made myself accountable.  I am responsible for my weight.  What I eat, exercising, etc... I make these choices and I am responsible for who I am.  Part of recording this journey has been forcing honesty in what I eat and how I exercise.  I also went into this with, in spite of my embarrassment, making this public at some stage, to tie in with My Life After Loss, since this is part of my journey.  Part of that means being honest so that others can be helped.  There's something about that accountability.  It helps me make better choices.

I'm not perfect.  And, when I have a 3000 calorie day, it's okay.  I dont beat myself up.  I tell myself that tomorrow will be different and I move on.  There's no point in holding onto that; there's tomorrow to think about.  And, from where I'm sitting right now, tomorrow's a pretty bright day.

Month In Review: December 2010

I began December weighing 218.5lbs with a BMI of 34.2.
As of January 1st, I weigh 209lbs and have a BMI of 32.7.
I have lost 9.5lbs and 1.5 BMI points.
Overall, I have lost 31 lbs and 4.9 BMI points.
For the month of December, I worked out 18 times, with a mix of yoga, running, walking, swimming, and ab work.  This averages to more than every other day!

My calorie goal per day for December was to consume 1700 calories.  My best day was 1220 and my worst day was 3110, for an average of 1863.5 per day.  This is 163.5 over my increased goal, and is a huge decrease from last month.  I am happy with this!  In spite of being over my goal of 1700 calories per day, December is the month of Christmas and I am proud of myself for continuing to lose weight in spite of the holiday feasting.  I actually lost weight over Christmas!  I didnt deprive myself during the holidays; in fact, I ate a cookie at this party or a piece of pie at this one.  But it was ONE cookie or ONE sliver of pie- and then that was it.  I ate the different foods- but I ate a little bit of them.  And, surprisingly, I wasn't hungry at the end of it.

Overall, I am very happy with my weight loss of approx. 2.5lbs/wk, even with increased calories due to the holidays.  I am happy with working out 3/wk as a regular goal (and even fitting in more some weeks!). 

Friday, 12/31

Weight: 209

Breakfast: yogurt (140), bagel (110), cream cheese (80), chocolate almond milk (120)=450c
Snack: 100c pack=100c
Appetizers: Shrimp (100c), dip on crackers (200c), carrots (60c), fruit drink (400c)=760c
Dinner: crab cake (150c), steak (250c), potato (250c), asparagus (50c), hollandaise sauce (100c), piece of cake (300c), coffee (75c)= 1175c

Total: 2485

While it was more calories than I'd like, it was a lovely dinner with friends.

Thursday, December 30, 2010

Thursday, 12/30

Weight: 209

Breakfast: 3 pieces bacon (200c), toast (100c), jelly (45c), tea, 2 eggs (140c)=485c
Lunch: LC meal=300c
Dinner: Gruyere cutlet (300c), collard greens (50c), potato (150c)=500c
Dessert: Pudding= 60c
Snack: 100c pack=100c

Total: 1445

Ran 3.4 miles in 48 minutes, burned 530 calories (and I got to run outside on snow covered trails!)

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Wednesday, 12/29

Snack: 100c pack= 100c
Lunch: HC meal=270c
Snack: dried vegetable chips (75c), 100c pack (100c)=175c
Dinner: homemade burger (250c) on thin bun (100c) with lettuce (10c), tomato (25c), cheese (90c), fried onions (50c), and condiments (40c), with oven roasted potatoes (150c) and salad (200c), followed by pudding (60c)=975c
Snack: 2 cookies (150c) and plain hot tea=150c

Total: 1670c

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Tuesday, 12/28

Weight: 209.5

Pre-workout snack: energy bar=170c

Lunch: basmati rice (150), lamb tikki masala (180), lamb/egg dish (150c), lentils (100c), mango lassi (100), veggie samosa(200), naan (75)= 955c

Dinner: small baked potato (120) with sour cream (20) and butter (20), gruyere cutlet (260), collard greens (50), and pudding (60)= 530c

(1655 calories)

Jogged 35 minutes and nearly 2.75 miles on the treadmill, burned 385 calories

Monday, December 27, 2010

Monday, 12/27

Breakfast: Panatone French Toast (270c) and 1tbsp maple syrup (50) and tea=320c

Snack: 100c pack= 100c

Lunch: LC meal=280c

Snack: 100c pack = 100c

Dinner: lasagna (350c), pork (200c), green beans (50c), potato (150c), rice (100c), onions (50c)= 900c

Total: 1700c

The Week in Review, 12/20/10-12/26/10

 started out blogging with the scale reading: 213.5 lbs
As of this morning, the scale reads: 210 lbs
Total Weight Lost:  3.5 lbs
This is worse than last week.

I started out the week hoping to do at least 3 days of exercise.
This week, I ran on 1 day and swam on 1 day.
This is worse than last week.

This week, I wanted to keep my calories around 1700 per day.
My best day logged 1220 calories and my worst day logged 2020 calories.
My average calories, per day, for the week, were 1716.
This is better than last week.

On a scale from 1-10, with 10 being a complete success with no regrets, I would give this week a 9.  While I wish that I could have worked out more than twice in the week, with having 3 holiday days (Christmas Eve, Christmas, and Day After Christmas), I am extremely happy that I managed to fit in some working out.  And, in even better news, I actually LOST weight over Christmas!!!  Even though I wasnt able to fit in working out and even though I ate more calories than I would have liked on Christmas Day, I exercised portion control and even managed a dessert or two!  I wasnt hungry, I wasnt stuffed, and I felt great.  In fact, I just have to post this picture of myself, 30 pounds lighter than when I started this journey!!!

Sunday, 12/26

Breakfast: waffle (200c) and OJ (50c)= 250c

Lunch: Salad (150c) and veggie lasagna (400c)= 550
Dessert: Chocolate Cream Pie (300c) with whipped cream (50c) and coffee (50c)= 400c

Dinner: veggie lasagna slice (400c), slice of pork (100c), relleno (150c)=650c

Total: 1850c

Saturday, 12/25

Merry Christmas!

Breakfast: Crabcake Eggs Benedict (egg (70c) over crabcake (100c) over english muffin half (50c) drizzled with hollandaise (50c)=270c) and fruit compote (250c) with mimosa (150c) and coffee (50c)=720c

Dinner: Salmon over yams (250c), green beans with almond butter (75c), roasted shallots (100c), red cabbage (150c), twice baked potato (200c), 3 gruyere puffs (250c), 2 cookies (175c), coffee (50c), wine (50c)=est 1300c

Est. 2020

Friday, 12/24

Christmas Eve

Honestly, it's Monday, so I am having a very hard time remembering!

Breakfast:  Pancakes=200c
Lunch: LC meal=250c
Dinner: 2 slices roast pork, 2 rellenos, 1/2c spanish rice, 1/2 roll, 4oz wine, 12oz Guinness, 2 cookies= est. 1500c

Est: 1950c

Thursday, December 23, 2010

Thursday, 12/23

Weight: 212

Breakfast: piece of pizza (210c), 100c pack (100c)=310c
Lunch: piece of pizza (210c), 100c pack (100c)=310c
Snack: 100c pack=100c
Dinner: Salad (200c) and quiche (500c)=700c

Total: 1420c

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Wednesday, 12/22

Weight: 212

Breakfast: 2 eggs (140c), 1.5 pieces toast (65c)=205c
Lunch: LC meal= 310c
Dinner: (from Dominos) chicken wings (300c) and dip (80c), thin crust 1/4 pie (305c), hand tossed 1/4 pie (420c)=1105c
Dessert: 2 homemade oatmeal raisin cookies= 180c

Total: 1800c

Ran 2.3 miles in 25 minutes, burned 280c

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Tuesday, 12/21

Happy Solstice!
Weight: 213.5

Breakfast: oatmeal=260c
Snack: WW cake (90c), caramel (30c)=120c
Lunch: LC meal=320c
Snack: chocolate balls=25c
Dinner: 6 pieces snow crab sushi (300c), butternut squash soup (400), french bread (250c), 100c pack (100c)=1050c


Swam for 20 minutes (approx 450 meters)= 195c burned

Monday, December 20, 2010

Monday, 12/20

Happy Solstice!
Weight: 213.5

Breakfast: cereal w/ almond milk=200c
Snack: 100c pack= 100c
Lunch: LC meal=270c
Snack: 100c pack=100c
Snack: WW cake=90c
Dinner: empanada (200c), spanish rice (200c), green beans (40c)=440c

I'm really proud of myself.  I've pushed myself away from the table after ONE helping because I am NOT hungry (even though I "could" stuff myself and eat more).  I may go back later, if I find myself hungry.  But right now- not hungry.  So, not eating.  Winning this battle!!!


Monday, 12/20

Happy Solstice!
Weight: 213.5

Breakfast: cereal w/ almond milk=200c
Snack: 100c pack= 100c
Lunch: LC meal=270c

The Week in Review, 12/13-12/19

 started out blogging with the scale reading: 217.5 lbs
As of this morning, the scale reads: 213.5 lbs
Total Weight Lost:  4 lbs
This is better than last week.

I started out the week hoping to do at least 3 days of exercise.
This week, I ran on 4 days and did yoga on 1 day.
This is better than last week.

This week, I wanted to keep my calories around 1700 per day.
My best day logged 1440 calories and my worst day logged 2500 calories.
My average calories, per day, for the week, were 1981.
This is better than last week.

On a scale from 1-10, with 10 being a complete success with no regrets, I would give this week a 7.  I was able to get to a yoga class.  I wasnt able to do a complete "long" run due to scheduling issues on Sunday, but that's okay.  I think my body wants me to not increase my mileage for a while and to seriously do more cross training for the winter.  This might slow down my progress, but for the safety of my muscles, I think this is important.  Food wise, we had 2 parties this weekend and, although they were higher calorie days, I am proud of how I did.  Sunday,  I ate until I was full, which isnt good, but I cut myself off and kept from going back to the kitchen.  I saw 212.5 on the scale this week, which was wonderful after seeing an increase last week.  However, after two parties, it is no surprise that my final weight was 213.5 for the week, and I'm just happy it isnt higher!  I also bought a new Christmas dress, which really made me feel good when looking in the mirror at the body I am creating.

Sunday, December 19, 2010

Sunday, 12/19

Breakfast: 1 egg (70c), 1/2 eng muffin (50c), 1oz salmon (50c), juice (50c)=220c
Post-Workout: Luna Bar=200c
Dinner: Zucc Lasagna (800c), egg plant parm (400c), salad (200c), cake (300c)= 1700c

Total: 2120

Ran 5.6 miles in 80 minutes, burned 900c

Saturday, December 18, 2010

Saturday, 12/18

Weight: 212.5 (I weighed myself twice- I couldn't believe it!!!)

Breakfast: malted pancakes made with peaches(250c) and topped with a drizzle of maple syrup (50c), homemade, rich hot chocolate-demitasse svg (100c)=400c

Lunch: loaded turkey sandwich (350c) with tabouli (150c) and chips (100c)=600c

For dinner, we went to a Solstice party.  I dont remember all I ate, but I'll guestimate about 1500c

Total: 2500

Friday, December 17, 2010

Friday, 12/17

weight: 214.5
Lunch: HC meal= 310c
Snack: 10 M&Ms (110), 100c pack (100c), Skinny Cow bar (100c)=310c
Dinner: fried grouper (350c), tabouli (200c), plantains (300c)= 850c

Total: 1470 calories

45 minute yin yoga class: burned 200 calories

Thursday, 12/16

Breakfast: Cereal=200c
Snack: Starbucks Skinny Vanilla Latte=150c
Lunch: LC meal=290c
Snack: 5 M&Ms=55c
Snack: 5 M&Ms (55c), 100c pack (100c)=155c
Dinner: Spagetti and veggie meatballs/sausages (650c) and bread (150c)=800c

Total: 1650

Jogged 50 minutes (4 miles) (560) and stretched 15 minutes (100)=660 calories burned

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Wednesday, 12/15

Breakfast: instant oatmeal=260c
Lunch: Ruby Tuesday's=650c
Dinner: 1.5 pieces homemade cheese pizza (300c), 1.5 pieces homemade veggie pizza (400c), 2oz red wine (150c), soy eggnog (90c), apple cake (200)=1140c

total: 2050c

Jogged/walked 2.6 miles on the treadmill and burned 390 calories over 34 minutes

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Tuesday, 12/14

PreWorkout/PostWorkout: Nutragrain (130c)/Gaterade(40c)=170c
Breakfast: Waffle(200c) and syrup(50c), clementine (70c)=320c
Snack: Tuna Salad (150c), 5 M&Ms (55c), and a caramel (30c)=235
Snack: 10 M&Ms=110c
Lunch: LC meal (280c), cheetos (100c), 5M&Ms (55c)=435c
Snack: Sandwich (90c), M&Ms (110c), popcorn (100c)=300c
Dinner: Falafel Salad (450c), 2 brownies (450c)=900

Total: 2470

Jogged 2 miles (345), walked .3 miles (35c), and stretched 10 minutes (65)= burned 445c

Not a good food day.  I hope my period is coming soon because I have wanted nothing but chocolate and salt (as you can see!) all damn day.  And I decided to just give in.  I feel pretty bad about it, but I really, REALLY wanted the chocolate and I thought I'd just take the plunge and get it over with.  I'll have to work out tomorrow to make up for it, and just get back on the wagon. Tomorrow is another day.

Monday, December 13, 2010

Monday, 12/13

AM Snack 1: 90 calories snack pack=90c
AM Snack 2: Veg. Jerky=100c
Lunch: LC meal: 350c
PM Snack 1: cookie (70c) and 20 M&Ms (230)=300c
PM Snack 2: popcorn=100c
Dinner: homemade Beef and Veggie Stew (300c) and roll (140c)=440c
Snack: cheetos (100c), pudding (60c), popcorn (100c)= 260c


The Week in Review, 12/6-12/12

 started out blogging with the scale reading: 216.5 lbs
As of this morning, the scale reads: 217.5 lbs
Total Weight GAINED: 1 lb
This is worse than last week.

I started out the week hoping to do at least 3 days of exercise.
This week, I ran on 4 days.
This is worse than last week.

This week, I wanted to keep my calories around 1700 per day.
My best day logged 1645 calories and my worst day logged 3110 calories.
My average calories, per day, for the week, were 2030.
This is worse than last week.

On a scale from 1-10, with 10 being a complete success with no regrets, I would give this week a 3.  I need to cross train with biking/swimming/ab work and stop relying just on running, especially since I pulled a muscle behind my knee.  MORE YOGA!!!  Food wise, we had the RLC party and Mason's 4th b-day party, and things just fell apart.  I am SO disappointed in myself for eating WAAAYYY more at the RLC party than I needed to.  It was delicious, but I should have stopped myself.  I saw the scale hit 215.5 this week and am terribly disappointed that I gained some of the weight back.

Sunday, 12/12

Breakfast: French Toast=300c
Lunch: 3 pieces pizza (750c), birthday cake (750c)=1500c
Dinner: Mediterranean tuna salad (350c) on pita (100c)=450c

Total: 2250
Ran 6.5 miles in 130 minutes in the rain: burned 1265c
Weight: 219.5 (EEK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

Saturday, December 11, 2010

Saturday, 12/11

Weight: 216.5

Breakfast: eggs, toast, turkey=300c

Lunch: Roy Rogers (I'm going to regret this...): chicken breast (370), biscuit (220), coleslaw (110), mashed potatoes (110)= 810 (now, given, I shared with the kids, but still....)

Dinner: Respect Life Committee Christmas party: I can only estimate about 2000 calories (and that may be low): empanadas, stuffed steak, cornbread, cookies, wine, peppermint bark.

Total: est 3110

Friday, December 10, 2010

Friday, 12/10

Weight: 217 WTF???????????????  I was under my calories, worked out, and was 215.5 two days ago!  All I can think is that my period should be due any day now...

Breakfast: ham sandwich=200c
Snack: cookie (70), coffee (35)=105
Lunch: HC meal=340c
Snack: 2 mayan brownies=450c
Dinner: chili=650c
After Workout Snack: turkey sandwich=200c
Total:  1945

Ran 3 miles on the track at the gym in about 45 minutes.  Burned 515c

Thursday, December 9, 2010

Thursday, 12/9

Breakfast: irish oatmeal (280c), coffee (30c)=310c
Lunch: ham sandwich (205c), sunchips (140c)=345c
Snack: 2 cookies=140c
Dinner: veggie & shrimp gumbo (250c)- 2 servings=500c
Snack: Skinny Cow bar=100c
Late Night Snack: gumbo=250c (I was starving!)
Total: 1645  calories

Ran 25 minutes.  It was FREEZING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  It was only 1.85 miles but I'm glad we went out at all!  Burned 285 calories.

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Wednesday, 12/8

Weight: 215.5

Breakfast: 1/4 slice banana bread (55c), ham (80c) and parm (20c) on wheat (80c) with mayo (25c)=260
Lunch: LC meal (250c), SF bar (100c)=350c
Dinner: @ Molly Maguire's Pub- salad w/ ranch (100c- I got the dressing on the side and just lightly dipped so I used practically nothing!), pan seared salmon fillet with mango salsa (400c), rice (150c), and steamed veggies(50c), pint of Guinness (205c); @ Starbucks- small skinny vanilla latte (90c) and cookies (130c)= 1125c

Total: 1735 calories
hardcore housework!  burned about 550 calories

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Tuesday, 12/7

Weight: 217

Breakfast: Irish Oatmeal with raisins and sugar (280c), piece of london broil (155c)= 435c
Lunch: 1/2 tuna salad (125) on pumpernickle (80c), sun chips (140c)=345c
PostWorkout Drink: Powerade=0c
Dinner: North African yam & peanut stew (450c) over couscous (200c)=650c
Snack: Skinny Cow bar=100c
Snack: tuna salad (150c) on flatbread crackers (90c)=240c

Total: 1770c

Ran for 38 minutes (2.7m) with Sarah: burned 400c

Monday, December 6, 2010

The Week in Review, 11/29-12/5

I started out blogging with the scale reading: 219 lbs
As of this morning, the scale reads: 216.5 lbs
Total Weight Lost: 2.5 lbs
This is worse than last week.

I started out the week hoping to do at least 3 days of exercise.
This week, I walked, ran, and did ab work on 5 days.
This is better than last week.

This week, I wanted to keep my calories around 1700 per day.
My best day logged 1690 calories and my worst day logged 2325 calories.
My average calories, per day, for the week, were 1942.
This is worse than last week.

On a scale from 1-10, with 10 being a complete success with no regrets, I would give this week a 7.  I am happy that I added a strength training workout to the week and would like to keep that up each week.  I am also thrilled that I ran a 6 mile stretch!!  In addition, I realized that I lost TWO sizes since I was in 20(reg) and dropped to 16(reg) and was an 18(LB) and am now a 14(LB).  I may not be able to shop (for pants at least) at Lane Bryant pretty soon!  In my unhappiness with the week, however, I am disappointed in my calories.  I need to keep a closer watch.  It seems that dinner is really where I fall apart.  Overall, I am still happy with my weight loss.  

Monday, 12/6

Weight: 216.5

Breakfast: cereal (120) and almond milk (30)=150
Snack: 1/2 slice banana bread (115c) and coffee (45c)=160c
Lunch: tuna salad (150c) on WW bread (90c) and tomato soup (220c)=460c
Snack: 4 M&Ms=55c
Dinner: london broil (210c), mushroom & onions (50c), garlic & roasted pepper kale (70c), 1/2 crescent roll (45c), gravy (45c), herbed fingerlings (250c), pumpkin pie (200c), hot choc (60c)= 930c

Total: 1755

Sunday, December 5, 2010

Sunday, 12/5

Breakfast: 2 pieces of bacon (80c), 1 choc chip 4-grain pancake (325), 1 egg (70c)=475c
Post-Workout Snack: gaterade (60c), peanut bar (190c)= 250c
Snack: hot chocolate=60c
Dinner: 2 pieces zucc. lasagna (800), small simple salad (60c), piece of pumpkin pie (320c) with freshly whipped cream (80c)= 1260c

Total: 2045c

Jogged 6 miles, burned 920c; pre and post jog walk of approx 1 mile total, burned 140c= total: 1060c burned  (I think I deserved a piece of pie!!!)

Saturday, December 4, 2010

Saturday, 12/4

Breakfast: choc chip 4-grain pancake (325c), chai (75c), Trop50 juice (50c)=450c

Lunch: Mediterranean wraps and sweet couscous salad = 615c
(I made these using similar ingredients so it was hard to separate them out: whole wheat wrap, Parmesan cheese, homemade hummus, romaine lettuce, roasted red peppers, tomato, carrot, cucumber, celery, sprouts, couscous, raisins)

Snack: banana nut bread=225c
Dinner: homemade zucchini lasagna (400c), gourmet salad (200c), few sips of wine (50c)=650c
Dessert: blueberry oatmeal cookie (135c) and soy milk hot chocolate (250c)=385c

Total: 2325

Ab Workout: 10m yoga abs and 10m ab/back workout= burned 130 calories

Friday, 12/3

Weight: 218

Breakfast: 2 eggs (140c), 2 WW toast (90c), chai (75c)=305c
Lunch: tuna salad (250c) on WW pita (100c), chai (75c), lavender cookies (150c)=575c
Dinner: Veggie Jalousie (325c) with gravy (25c), gourmet salad (200c), pickled red cabbage (100c)=650c
Dessert: chai (75c), lavender  cookies (150c)=225c

Total: 1755c

Walked into downtown and back with the kids: approx 2.5m; 90 minutes; burned 390 calories

Friday, December 3, 2010

Thursday, 12/2

Breakfast: oat cereal with milk (200c), juice (50c)=250c
Lunch: tuna salad (250c) on WW pita (100c), 2 cookies (200c), chai tea (65c)=615c
Dinner: homemade lentil loaf (325c), steamed broccoli rabe with pine nuts and garlic(100c), and onion & herb roasted fingerlings (250c)=675c
Dessert: 2 cookies (200c) and chai (65c)=265c

Total: 1805c

Ran 45 minutes with Sarah: burned 520 calories

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Wednesday, 12/1

Breakfast: Irish oatmeal with raisins and brown sugar (280c), Trop50 juice (50c)=330c
Snack: Skinny Cow bar=100c
Lunch: LC pumpkin ravioli lunch (300c), pudding (60c), coke zero=360c

Dinner: Nicholas's dinner=900c


Month In Review: November 2010

I began October weighing 227lbs with a BMI of 35.6.
As of November 30th, I weigh 218.5lbs and have a BMI of 34.2
I have lost 8.5lbs and 1.4 BMI points.
Overall, I have lost 21.5lbs and 3.4 BMI points.
For the month of November, I worked out 17 times, with a mix of yoga, running, and walking.  I completed 1 race.  This averages to 3.5 times a week. 

Every two months, I will take my measurements.  My starting measurements for October 1st were: 45.5-40-51 (49).  Measurements for December 1st were: 43.5-38-47 (44.5).  My bust decreased by 2 inches; waist by 2 inches; hips by 4 inches; and stomach by 4.5 inches.  I am very pleased with this.

My calorie goal per day for October was to consume 1700 calories (increased midmonth from 1500).  My best day was 1430 and my worst day was 3450, for an average of 2029.5 per day.  This is 329.5 over my increased goal, and is unacceptable.  In spite of this, November is the month of Thanksgiving and I am proud of myself for continuing to lose weight in spite of the holiday feasting.  We also visited TN, which made eating a challenge.

Overall, I am happy with my weight loss of approx. 2lbs/wk, even with increased calories due to the holidays and visit to TN.  I am happy with working out 3/wk as a regular goal (and even fitting in more some weeks!).

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Tuesday, 11/30

Weight: 218.5

Breakfast: 2 eggs (140c), 2 slices of bacon (80c), 2 pieces toast (90c), juice (50c), water=360c

Lunch: miso soup (70), salad (100), terriaki salmon (230c), california roll (255c), vegetable roll (250), 6 pieces melon (60), edamame (100)=1065c

Dinner: very veggie enchilada (500), half of my homemade ceasar salad (80c), coke zero=580c

Total: 2005

Jogged 3.2 miles in 50 minutes: burned 575 calories

Monday, November 29, 2010

Monday, 11/29

Breakfast: 2 eggs (140c), 2 slices of bacon (80c), 2 pieces toast (90c), juice (50c), coke zero=360c

Lunch: combination of 3 tea sandwiches (625c), sweetened coffee (75c), and pear cake (80c)=780c

Snack: nut bar=190c

Dinner: pan-seared scallops with apple-onion marmalade & bacon (325c), stuffed bell peppers (260c), and green beans (35c)=620c

Snack: 1 hershey's dark chocolate kiss=20

Total: 1970

I worked off a few calories in private ways :)

The Week in Review, 11/22/10-11/28/10

I started out blogging with the scale reading: 223.5lbs
As of this morning, the scale reads: 219 lbs
Total Weight Lost: 4.5 lbs
This is better than last week.

I started out the week hoping to do at least 3 days of exercise.
This week, I walked and ran on 3 days.
This is less than last week.

This week, I wanted to keep my calories around 1700 per day.
My best day logged 1640 calories and my worst day logged 2290 calories.
My average calories, per day, for the week, were 1907.
This is worse than last week.

On a scale from 1-10, with 10 being a complete success with no regrets, I would give this week a 9.  While I wish that I'd gotten a yoga class in, I am happy that I was active three times, including my longest run ever!!!  On top of that, I am so excited that I was able to continue losing weight over Thanksgiving!!!  With the food of Thanksgiving and the day after (eggnog anyone???), I was really concerned that I would go overboard, but I didn't.  I took smaller helpings so that I could have a little of everything that I wanted and, although I wasn't "stuffed", I was satiated, and that was enough.  I cut myself off.  And, my reward was that my weight loss continued- even over this huge "eat, eat, eat" holiday.  Seeing that 219 on the scale was a huge boom to my weight loss journey.  It makes counting calories and exercising so worth it to see the pounds melting off.  And, on top of that, I've been losing my pants! (21 pounds will do that!!!)  I actually had to order pants a size smaller than my currents!  Thrilling!!!

Sunday, November 28, 2010

Sunday, 11/28

Weight: 219.5

Breakfast: cereal with almond milk: 225c

Lunch: Spanish omelette (500), coffee (75)= 575

Snack: Gaterade=80c

Dinner: mushroom & garlic souffle (400c), salmon with herbs (400c), kale & cauliflower salad (50), and pear cake (80c)=930c

Total: 1810

Ran 5.5 miles in 75 minutes: burned 900 calories!!!!

Saturday, November 27, 2010

Saturday, 11/27

I forgot to weigh myself before breakfast :(

Breakfast: French toast made with almond milk (530c) and between 1/16 & 1/8c of maple syrup (70c), with Trop50 pom-blueberry juice (50c)= 650 calories

Lunch: Thanksgiving Leftovers (turkey-200, onions (200), yams (200), stuffing-150)= 750c

Snack: Skinny Cow (100c) and cheese (60c)= 160c

Dinner: Tuna Salad (150c) on flatbread (60c) with 5 M&M pretzel (11c ea=55c)= 265c

Snack: 15 pretzel M&Ms=165c

Total: 1990

Friday, November 26, 2010

Friday, 11/26

I cant believe it, but even with hogging up yesterday, I lost half a pound!!!
weight: 220

Breakfast: 2 eggs (140c), plain scone biscuit (110c), scone biscuit with a swipe of cinnamon butter & blackberry preserves (160c), 1 Morningstar maple sausage (80c), 8oz Trop50 pom-blueberry juice (50c)= 540c

Lunch: homemade turkey vegetable soup (250c), homemade cornbread stuffing (400c)=650c

Snack: eggnog=300c

Dinner: Turkey Salad and Stuffing sandwich (460c), Sunchips (140c)=600c

Snack: handful of M&Ms=200c

Total: 2290c

I cant believe the day after thanksgiving is actually this much worse!  I'll probably weigh a pound more tomorrow!!!  EEK!!!

Thursday, November 25, 2010

Thursday, 11/25

Happy Thanksgiving!!!
Weight: 220.5

Breakfast: one buttermilk pancake, plain (100c) and 1 cup of coffee (5c) with stevia (5c) and creamer (40c)=150c
Snack: Strongbow (1/2 bottle) 70c
Dinner: turkey (200c), stuffing (150c), mashed potatoes (200c), yams (200c), roll (100c), green bean casserole (200c), creamed onions (200c), white wine (30c), pumpkin pie (200c), coffee (50c)=1485c
Snack: a few more slices of turkey=300c (but, it was good protein to help rebuild from our kickass run!)

Total: 2005 calories

Jogged for over an hour with Sarah through two parks for 4.52 miles = burned 700 calories (that should warrant a piece of pie!!!)

Thanksgiving was a day that I was not looking forward to, calorie wise.  In addition to being surrounded by family and friends and so much good food, I just couldnt anticipate not eating to my heart's content.  But, since I was serving, I just put smaller helpings.  You could actually see my plate under my food!  I was able to taste a little of everything and had no more than 5-6 bites of any one thing.  When I was finished, I wasnt hungry... I wasnt stuffed either, but I could have eaten more.  I just chose not to.  I figured that, if I were hungry later, I'd eat something else.

Which is what happened... So, I had a few slices of turkey.  Right now, I want to eat more (because it is soooo good!!!) but I am choosing not to...  Because I'm not hungry!

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Wednesday, 11/24

Breakfast: Fruit Loops (160c) with almond milk (30c) and Trop50 blueberry-pomegranate juice (50c)=240c
Lunch: PB&J on WW bread (90, 190, & 50c) and banana (105c) and sunchips (140c) and coke zero=575c
Dinner: spagetti with homemade sauce (est: 600c), homemade garlic bread (est. 250), salad with lowcal ranch (est 125c), coffee with creamer and stevia (50c)=1025c

Total: 1840 calories

90 minute walk with kids to do errands: burned 400 calories!

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Tuesday, 11/23

Happy Birthday, Alexander

Breakfast: Franconia Heritage- estimating 500 calories: shared scrambled eggs, toast, biscuit, pancake, and hashbrowns with the kids

Lunch: 2.5 pieces of Domino's pizza (490c), brownie (300c), and coke zero=790c

Dinner: tuna sandwich (290c), tomato soup (140c), pudding (60c)=490c

Total:  1780 calories
Weight this morning: 222.5

Monday, November 22, 2010

Monday, 11/22

No breakfast... I'm feeling sick, so eating isn't a big priority right now.

Lunch: homemade soup (200c), 1/2 wrap sandwich (300c), cake (200c), chai tea (40c)=740c

Dinner: homemade soup (300c), cornbread (300c), brownie (300c), coke zero=900c

Total: 1640c

Sarah and I were supposed to go for a run today, but called it off due to my being sick :(  Sadness

The Week in Review, 11/15/10-11/21/10

I started out blogging with the scale reading: 227.5lbs
As of this morning, the scale reads: 223.5lbs
Total Weight Lost: 4 lbs
This is better than last week.

I started out the week hoping to do at least 3 days of exercise.
This week, I ran, biked, and did yoga on 4 days.
This is the same as last week.

This week, I wanted to keep my calories around 1700* per day.
My best day logged 1475 calories and my worst day logged 1905 calories.
My average calories, per day, for the week, were 1675.  
This is better than last week.

On a scale from 1-10, with 10 being a complete success with no regrets, I would give this week an 8.  I changed my calorie goals from 1500 to 1700* because I felt that 1700 was a more doable number, but also a number that gives me good weight loss results.  As a result of that change, I made my goal on several days and my weekly calorie average was 1675.  I'm learning that I can eat healthy and within my goals and not be famished or feel unhappy with my food choices.  I am happy with my working out and would like to change my goal to 4x/week, since it is a doable number for me.  I am happy with how running and yoga make me feel on the inside as well as the outside visibility of losing weight.   Having the support of Peter AND having Sarah as a running partner makes this an easier endeavor.  

Sunday, November 21, 2010

Sunday, 11/21

Breakfast: cold leftover pork chop=300c
Lunch: tuna sandwich (300c), tomato soup (200c), and cake (200c)=700c
Dinner: Subway sandwich (400c), Skinny Cow bar (100c), cake (200c)=700c

Total Calories: 1700c

Burned 315 calories on a leisurely bike ride with Peter while Uita & Aunt Sarah watched the babies!

Saturday, November 20, 2010

Saturday, 11/20

Weight: 233

Breakfast: veggie omelet (235c), hot chocolate (70c), skinny cow bar (100c)=405c
Lunch: Zoup's chicken noodle soup (bowl/16oz) (180c), 2 multigrain rolls (370c), a few sips of iced tea (50c)=600c
Dinner: Nicholas's Dinner=900c

Total: 1905c

Friday, November 19, 2010

Friday, 11/19

Breakfast: maple & brown sugar oatmeal (400c) and hot chocolate (70c)=470c
Snack: coffee: 85c
Lunch: tuna sandwich (250c) and celery soup (150c) with Coke Zero=400c
Snack: Skinny Cow Bar =100c
Snack: Chai Tea =70c
Dinner: Gruyere cutlet (280c), wild rice (250c), broccoli (45c)=575c

Total: 1700

Yoga: burned 400c

Thursday, November 18, 2010

Thursday, 11/18

Weight: 225 (finally...)

Breakfast: Salmon (150c) over english muffin (100c) topped with eggs (150c) with coffee (55c)=455c
Lunch: Tuna Sandwich (250c), veggie chips (130c), Coke Zero, and Skinny Cow bar (100c)=480c
Dinner: Chili (500c) with 8 crackers (140c)=640c
Dessert: Pudding (60c) and hot chocolate (70c)=130c

Total: 1705 calories

Ran 3.09 miles with Sarah in 41:20, burning 489 calories

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Wednesday, 10/17

Breakfast: Cream of Wheat and coffee=300c
Lunch: Lean Cuisine meal =270c
Snack: Quorn nuggets=200c
Dinner: Salmon fillet (500c), salad w/ light ranch (150c), and ricearoni (280c)=930c

Total: 1700c

Did housework: burned about 600c

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Tuesday, 11/16

Breakfast: almond milk pancakes with 1tbsp maple syrup (375c) and 8oz Trop50 OJ (50c)= 425c
Lunch: chicken (60c) on WW bread (90c) with mayo (50c)=200c
Dinner: Sophie's Dinne=850c

Total: 1475c
Ran 4 miles; burned 700 calories!

Monday, November 15, 2010

Monday, 11/15

Breakfast: 2 eggs, 2 veg. sausages, 2 slices WW bread, 8oz Trop50 OJ= 440 calories
Lunch: homemade veggie soup=200c
Snack: veggie soup and slice of homemade bread=300c
Snack: Skinny Cow bar=100c
Dinner: veggie soup and slice of homemade bread=400c
Dessert: WW cake=100c

Total: 1540 (now that's more like it!!!)

Missed yoga :(  But spent time with my hunny! :)

The Week in Review, 11/8/10-11/14/10

I started out blogging with the scale reading: 226lbs
As of this morning, the scale reads: 227.5lbs
Total Weight Gained: 1.5 lbs
This is worse than last week.

I started out the week hoping to do at least 3 days of exercise.
This week, I walked on 4 days and ran on 2 days.
This is the better than last week.

This week, I wanted to keep my calories around 1500 per day.
My best day logged 1740 calories and my worst day logged 3200 calories.
My average calories, per day, for the week, were 2362.  
This is worse than last week.

On a scale from 1-10, with 10 being a complete success with no regrets, I would give this week a 4.  I am so happy with my physical activity and the fact that my 5K time was 37:58.  But my food choices were abyssal.  I actually saw 225 on the scale and it is heartbreaking that my tally for the week is 2.5 pounds heavier than that.  It's all about the food choices.  I can do better.  I've shown that.  I just have to do it.

Sunday, 11/14

Breakfast: Cereal and almond milk: 200
Lunch: Breakfast bar @ Franconia Heritage... 1500??
Dinner: Pizza and wings... 1500??

Total: 3200

Ran 5K in 37:58 :)  5mph!!! burned 550 calories

Saturday, November 13, 2010

Saturday, 11/13

Breakfast: breakfast burrito=350c
Lunch: chicken sandwich (200c), okra (20c), string cheese (90c), sunchips (140c)=450c
Dinner... Ugh, I hate to guess.  It was potluck night.  I cant even remember all I ate.  I'll guestimate about 2000 calories... yes, just in dinner...

So total: 2700

Friday, November 12, 2010

Friday, 11/12

Scale: 225lbs

Breakfast: coffee (5c) and oat bran cereal w/ almond milk (200c)= 205c
Lunch: chicken salad sandwich (350c), veggie chips (130c), and grapes (30c) with Coke Zero= 510c
Snack: string cheese (90c) w/ 2 flatbread crackers (60c)=150c
Dinner: fried catfish (260c), collard greens (30c), rice (220c), bread (150c)=660c
Dessert: SF yellow cake w/ whipped choc frosting= 285c

total: 1810c

Walked 45 minutes with the kids: burned 200 calories

Thursday, November 11, 2010

Thursday, 11/11

Breakfast: oat bran cereal with almond milk (240c) and coffee (30c)=270c

Lunch: cream of celery soup (135c) made with milk (90c) with 4 flatbread crackers (120c) and a piece of string cheese (90c) and Coke Zero=435c

Walked with the kids burned 130 calories and running the equiv of a 5K with Sarah (in 37 minutes no less!!!) burned 450 calories!)

Snack: piece of pumpkin bread=130c

Dinner: herb roasted fingerling potatoes (250c), rotissori chicken (white meat) (400c), gourmet salad (250c)=900c
Dessert: gourmet 1 1/3 mixed cupcakes (850c) & 1/3 mini loaf chocolate hazelnut bread (200c)=1050c

Total: 2785

I've got to stop eating like this.  I know better.  I really wanted the dessert, but, without it, I would have been so much closer to my eating goals.  I'm very disappointed in myself.  Very disappointed.

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

Mon, 11/8; Tues, 11/9; Wed, 11/10

Mon (1800)
Cereal with milk 300c
Ham Crossaint sandwich 800c
Lobster 125c, Twice Baked Potato 550c, Broccoli 25c

Tues (2500)
Cereal with milk 300c
Burrito 1200c
Lasagna 800c, salad with LC ranch 200c
**Walked 1.5 miles around the park- burned 200 cals**

Wed (1740)
Cereal with Almond Milk 240c
Zoups Chicken & Garlic soup 100c with roll 100c and 1/2 chicken sandwich 250c
4 cookies 250c
Lasagna 800c
**Walked 1.5 miles to town and back- burned 200 cals**
Weight: 238.5

The Week in Review, 11/1-11/7/10

I started out blogging with the scale reading: 227lbs
As of this morning, the scale reads: 226lbs
Total Weight Lost: 1 lbs
This is worse than last week.

I started out the week hoping to do at least 2 days of exercise.
This week, I ran on 2 days, and did a power yoga class on 1 day, for a total of 3 days.
This is the same as last week.

This week, I wanted to keep my calories around 1500 per day.
My best day logged 1430 calories and my worst day logged 3450 calories.
My average calories, per day, for the week, were 2258.  
This is worse than last week.

On a scale from 1-10, with 10 being a complete success with no regrets, I would give Nov 1-7, a ranking of 6.  I am really proud of myself for running in the rain and for hitting a 4 mile run (alone no less!) but I am really disappointed in my food choices.  Seeing 226 on the scale was great, but with food choices like this, it is no wonder my loss was only 1 pound.

Sat 11/6 & Sun 11/7

(In Nashville...)

Sat (1720)
egg cheese panini 510c Snapple 120c Bite of Muffin 50c
soup 300c biscuits 200c
soup 150c crackers 100c OJ drink 300c

Sun (2640)
Cereal with milk 310c milk 110c coffee 30c
Provence tuna sandwich 500c with tomato soup 300c pumpkin spice coffee 240c
Califlour with cheese 400c, vegetable and ham quiche 700c, spinach 50c

Friday, November 5, 2010

Friday, 11/5

Breakfast (bad, I know...): 3 cookies (180c) and coffee (60c)=240c
Lunch: homemade egg salad (300c) on WW bread (90c) with veggie chips (130c) and a coke zero=520c
Snack: Coffee (60c) and 1 cookie (60c)=120c
Dinner: Salad w/ light ranch (200c), corn chowder (100c) in an acorn squash (40c), and bread (150c) with a pudding for dessert (60c)=550c

45 minutes of power yoga burned 400c

And, great news, 226 pounds on the scale today!

Thursday, November 4, 2010

Thursday, 11/4

Breakfast: 1 cup Oat Bran cereal (160c) with 1/2 cup almond milk (30c) and 1 cup Trop50 OJ (50c)=240c
Lunch: White Clam Pasta= 480c
Snack: Granola bar=100c
Dinner: Salmon over yams (530c), green beans (25c), salad with light ranch dressing (150c), with cookies (200c) and coffee (60c)=965c

Total: 1785

Ran 1.8 miles with Sarah (in the rain) at a 12.5 minute mile!  :)  Burned 350 calories

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Wednesday, 1/3

Breakfast: 1c of Honey Bunches of Oats (160c) with 1/2c whole milk (75c) and 2 leftover BBQ ribs (160c)=395c

Lunch: ceasar salad in tortilla bowl (760c) and french onion soup (375c)=1135c

Dinner: rotissori chicken (290c), mashed potatoes (200c), and carrots (30c)=520c

Snack: 3 cookies (200c)

Total:  2250 calories

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Tuesday, 11/2

Breakfast: 1 and 1/2 svgs, so the calories are more than I'd like, but it kept me going!!!  English muffin with hummus, halumi, and sundried tomatoes, sprinkled with feta.  600 calories

Lunch: macaroni with marinara and baby shrimp- 605 calories

Dinner: Ruby Tuesdays- Salad Bar (300c), Steak & Lobster (415c), mashed potatoes (170c), broccoli (90c), and 2 biscuits (180c) with Coke Zero = 1155 calories.  I was estimating about 1500, so this was better than I thought, but worse than what I should have (in general).

Snack: Candy: 180 (1 Snickers Mini, 1 Twix Mini, 2 Riesen Chews)

Total: 2540.  So, overall, higher than I wanted, but not as terrible as it could have been.

Jogged 4 miles for a burn of 677 calories!

Monday, November 1, 2010

Monday, 11/1

Breakfast: Went to Franconia Heritage.  Ate half of slice of pumpkin french toast (240c), veggie & cheese omelet (400c), half a plain biscuit with orange marmalade (150c), 1 piece of buttered toast (150c), and 2 cups of black coffee (10c), for a total of: 950c.  Although these are estimates, it doesn't make me happy to see!

Dinner: We went to Bocelli's, so all of thes are estimates.  I honestly dont even want to think about the calories.  Peter and I (and the babies) split a salmon carpacio.  I had about 6-8oz of red wine with my dinner of chicken parm over spaghetti.  Then, I had an espresso and shared some tiramisu with Maya. Finally, I had a shot of lemoncello.  I had to eat at least 2500 calories... I'm sure of it.  We'll go with that.

Which means I'm starting off November pretty poorly, at about 3450 calories.  EEK!!!  Tomorrow has GOT to be a better day!

Month In Review: October 2010

I began October weighing 240lbs with a BMI of 37.6.
As of November 1st, I weigh 227lbs and have a BMI of 35.6
I have lost 13lbs and 2 BMI points.

I began October being lucky to workout 1 time a week/4 times a month.  For the month of October, I worked out 14 times, with a mix of yoga, running, and walking.  This averages to 3.5 times a week.

My calorie goal per day for October was to consume 1500 calories.  My best day was 1186 and my worst day was 3440, for an average of 1708.5 per day.  This is 208.5 over my goal, however, I can accept this.

Overall, I am very proud of my accomplishments this month.  I know that weight typically comes off faster when first making lifestyle changes, however, if I loss 1-2 lbs per week, I will be happy with this as "healthy weight loss".

The Week in Review, 10/25-10/31/10

I started out blogging with the scale reading: 231.5lbs
As of this morning, the scale reads: 227lbs
Total Weight Lost: 4.5lbs
This is better than last week.

I started out the week hoping to do at least 2 days of exercise.
This week, I walked & ran on 2 days, and did a power yoga class on 1 days, for a total of 3 days.
This is the same as last week.

This week, I wanted to keep my calories around 1500 per day.
My best day logged 1550 calories and my worst day logged 2070 calories.
My average calories, per day, for the week, were 1822.5.  
This is better than last week.

On a scale from 1-10, with 10 being a complete success with no regrets, I would give Oct 25th-Oct 31st, a ranking of 8.  I am okay with the exercise, although I would have liked to have made yoga a second day.  We moved on Friday and Saturday, and I broke a sweat several times.  I know that, although it isn't formal exercise, it was good activity.  I wasn't able to log food 3 days (due to moving) but, even with junk food around, I made okay choices.  Also, even though I ate some candy on Halloween, I cut myself off and refused to binge.  It's still in the house, but I am walking by it without even picking it up.  I am really proud of myself for this.  Best of all, the scale has hit 227; seeing that "2" as a second number is doing great for my mental well-being.

Friday, 10/29-Sunday, 10/31

A few days at once and no calories...  We moved this weekend, so, I dont have calorie info, and, although we ate pizza, etc, while moving, and I snacked on some candy yesterday, I feel like I did a decent job (especially with so much temptation!!!!)   And, to prove it, the scale this morning read 227!!!  Yay for me!!!

Thursday, October 28, 2010

Thursday, 10/28

Woke up to a new scale reading: 230lbs.  Wow.  In another half pound, I'll see 22X.  I'm excited!  (I'll be even more excited to see 21X or 20X (or let's be honest- 1XX).

Breakfast: I'm pretty happy with this.  I created it using just what I have on hand, which isn't much seeing as we are moving tomorrow!  English Muffin (100c) with 1tbsp hummus (45c), 1/4 tomato sliced (10c), 1svg halumi (90c), and 1 small apple (55c).  Total=300  And it was delicious!!!  (I think we'll be having this for breakfast tomorrow, although we will have to share the last apple we have!)

Lunch: HC Meal (260c) & Garlic Bread (140c) = 400c

Snack: HC Meal: 220c

PreWorkout Snack: 90c

Dinner: Keilbasa, Pierogi, Broccoli, 1/2 english muffin (700c) and pudding (60c)= 760c

Total: 1770 calories

Higher than I wanted, but we ran a good clip (45m plus 10m walking!) and I've moved a lot of stuff today!!!  The run burned 550c and the walking segment (warm up and cool down) burned 75c for a total of 625c!

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Wednesday, 10/27

Weight: 230.5

Breakfast: eggs, toast, veggie bacon, apple cider= 500c
Lunch: snow crab roll sushi (500c) and pudding (60c) and Coke Zero= 560c
Dinner: 2 small fried pork chops (250c), rice (200c), beans (150c), cornbread (170c), Coke Zero= 770c

Total Calories: 1830c

While I didnt do any formal exercise, I did pack a lot of boxes, which worked up a sweat.

Edit@11pm.  I was hungry so I broke down and had a pudding (60c) and 4 carrots (100c) with light ranch (80c), for a total of 240c.  :(  That brings my total for the day to 2070.

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Tuesday, 10/26

Breakfast: Healthy Choice meal (300c) and Coke Zero (0c)= 300c
Lunch: Boston Market with Peter=900c (EEK!!!)
Preworkout Snack: String Cheese= 90c
Dinner: tuna sandwich (250c) and tomato soup (210c), and half a single svg lemon cream pie (150c)=610c

Total: 1900 calories

Fitness Yoga class: burned 350c

Monday, October 25, 2010

Monday, 10/25

Breakfast: Healthy Choice meal 250c, 2 glasses water, Cherry Coke Zero
Lunch: Brother's Pizza 2 slices of Sicilian style pizza- 500c
Dinner: Lasagna, Garlic Bread, Salad, Skinny Cow ice cream bar- 800c

Total: 1550c

Went for a run a with Sarah: burned 360c

I really enjoy the HC meals.  I'd love to eat them for breakfast and lunch, but the cost!  It would be through the roof, unless I got them on sale every single time!

The Week in Review, 10/18-10/24/10

I started out blogging with the scale reading: 234lbs
As of this morning, the scale reads: 231.5lbs
Total Weight Lost: 2
This is better than last week.

I started out the week hoping to do at least 1 day of exercise.
This week, I walked & ran on one day, and did 2 power yoga classes on two days, for a total of 3 days.
This is better than last week.

This week, I wanted to keep my calories around 1500 per day.
My best day logged 1285 calories and my worst day logged 3440 calories.
My average calories, per day, for the week, were 1845.  
This is better than last week.

On a scale from 1-10, with 10 being a complete success with no regrets, I would give Oct 18th-Oct 24th, a ranking of 7.  I am okay with the exercise, although I would have liked to have ran a second day, and I think my food choices were better than last week.  I was happy with my calories 5 out of 7 days (I was near my goal or under those days).  I saw the scale hit 230.5 but killed it with our Blue Sage outing.  That was a huge disappointment.  

Sunday, October 24, 2010

Sunday, 10/24

No Breakfast

Lunch: 1/4 of my Blue Sage wrap from last night (I shared the 1/2 I saved with Peter), est. 200c; homemade cream of asparagus & shrimp soup (it's the table cream that kills it!), 380c; coffee with creamer, 50c, Cherry Coke Zero, 0c.  Total: 630c

For dinner, I'm making mediterranean wraps and cream of sweet potato soup (all from scratch).  It will be interesting to see the calorie counts once I add stuff up!  But, on a good note, Sarah and I have planned a run!

Edited 10/25: Well, we didnt run (although we did go shopping...)  Everyone else, babies included, loved the soup, but I wasnt a big fan, so I'll give myself 100c for the few bites I took.  However, I (in addition to Sarah and Peter) LOVED the wraps!  A whole wrap was, easily, 500c, and I ate half a second wrap!  So, 750c.  Total for dinner: 850c.  Afterwards, I had a late snack: a 60c pudding container.  It was delicious!

Total for the day: 1540c

Saturday, 10/23

What a food day!  I woke up this morning to 231.5, but that wasn't to last!

Breakfast: 500c.  I made salmon eggs benedict, with homemade low-cal hollandaise sauce.  I was pretty happy with myself!  I also enjoyed 8oz of fresh apple cider!

Lunch: 1/2 a side serving of tomato soup (150c) with half a multigrain roll (155c) and 1/2 a tuna sandwich (470c) from Zoup, along with some iced tea (75c)  So, total: 850c

Dinner:  We met friends at Blue Sage.  I can't even imagine the calories, but I'm going to take some guestimates.  I had a few bites of a variety of appetizers that the table shared, so I'll say 150c.  My dinner was called El Fino and it was DELICIOUS!  (Griddled spinach wrap encases grilled pears, maple pecans, gorgonzola, grilled onions, baby greens & dairy free carmelized onion mayo. Served with spring mix in pear-walnut vinaigrette, oranges, roasted baby yellow beets & sundried cranberries.)  I only ate half the wrap and none of the salad (I brought the rest home with me).  But I will estimate 400c- just for that half!  For dessert, Peter and I shared the hazelnut toffee basket (Filled with rich chocolate buttercream mousse, caramlized bananas & toasted hazelnuts) but because the kids were really tired, we ended up leaving at least 1/3 of it behind, so I'll estimate 250c for what I did eat.  Plus, I had about 8oz of champagne. So, about 150c.  So, an estimate of 950c for dinner

Total Damage: 2300c

Friday, October 22, 2010

Friday, 10/22

Woke up this morning to another pound down on the scale!  231.5!

No Breakfast
Lunch: Tuna fish and a large salad (450c)
Snack: 2 Kashi cookies (260c)
Snack: Jello Mouse (60c) and ColbyJack string cheese (90c)

I have power yoga tonight (yay for burning 500c!) and then, let's see... What to make for dinner!  I picked up some fresh veggies from a farm stand, so those will play a role!

Edit@11:43pm.  I'd say the yoga was a cross between fitness and power, so we'll give it 350c burned. 
Dinner: Mashed sweet potatoes (330c), green beans (50c), Quorn Gruyere cutlet (260c), total: 640c

Total for the day: 1500c
Total burned: 350c

Thursday, October 21, 2010

Thursday, 10/21

A.M. weight: 233

Breakfast: SlimFast Bar (100c) and salmon (150c): 250c
Lunch: Shrimp Tempura Sushi (500c), Veggie Goyza (125c), Cherry Coke Zero: 625c
Snack: Pumpkin Spice Latte with skim milk from Panera (300c), cup of black dark roast coffee (5c)
Dinner: Gourmet Salad- avocado, tomato, gala apple, celery, carrot, baby romaine lettuce, Quorn cutlet, light Hidden Valley Ranch dressing (350c), Cherry Coke Zero
Snack: WW bar (100c)

Total: 1530 calories

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Wednesday, 10/20

No Breakfast or A.M. Snack
Lunch: 2 quorn patties on 4 slices WW bread with 2tsp mayo, and diet coke (400c)
Snack: Gatorade (15c)
Preworkout Snack: 120c
Postworkout Snack: Gatorade (30c)
Dinner: Stirfry (720c)
Total Food: 1285

Ran with Sarah: walking portion (115c) and jogging portion (370c)= total calories burned: 485c

Tuesday, 10/19

Breakfast: Choc Cheerios w/ Skim Milk (140c)
Lunch: Thai Food- Veggie Medley w/ Brown Sauce, Rice, and Lemongrass Soup (1/3 svg) (450c, est) with a Cherry Coke Zero
Snack: 2 pieces of dark chocolate (80c)
PreWorkout Snack: 100cal snack pack (100c)
Dinner: Veggie Chili w/ 4 whole wheat club crackers and a salad with light ranch dressing, with diet decaf iced tea (550c)

Went to the gym for an hour fitness yoga class, burning about 350 calories.  Woo Hoo!

So, total intake was 1320 with a burn of 350!  And, this morning, the scale read 232.5!!!

Monday, October 18, 2010

Monday, Oct 18th

Breakfast: Shake (200c)
Lunch: 240c
Snack: 100c
Snack: 200c
Dinner (shoot me now...)  We went to Elevation Burger.  While there are no official calorie counts, online I found the following: Elevation Burger (1700c), fries (200c), 16oz chocolate malt (800c), and a coke zero (0c).  That means, dinner alone, **gulp** was 2700c.  We have to stop doing EB... The calories are killing me!
Total for the day...  2700+740=3440.  YUCK.  Not a great way to start off the week.

I'm looking over the class schedule at the gym where we will be living near in (gulp) 11 days, and there are a few I think I'd like to take.

Definitely the Friday night Ashtanga class (burns 500c).  And there is something I *could* do each night of the week, I think.

Monday: Fitness Yoga 6pm or Pilates 7pm
Tuesday: Fitness Yoga 7pm
Wednesday: Cardio Blast 6:30pm
Thursday: Fitness Yoga 6:30pm
Friday:  Ashtanga Yoga 6:30pm
Saturday: Pilates 9:30am or Fitness Yoga 10:30am or Hatha Yoga 11:30am
Sunday: Fitness Yoga 10am

There are a few morning classes too:
Monday: Fitness Yoga 10:30am
Tuesday: Yogalates 8:30am or Fitness Yoga 10:30am
Wednesday: Pilates 10:30am
Thursday: Yogalates 8:30am
Friday:  Fitness Yoga: 10:30am

So, we shall see if I can manage 3 a week once we move!  Plus my running of course!

The Week in Review, 10/12-10/17/10

I started out blogging with the scale reading: 234lbs
As of this morning, the scale reads: 234lbs
Total Weight Lost: NONE
This is worse than last week.
I started out the week hoping to do at least 1 day of exercise.
This week, I walked & ran on one day, and did an Ashtanga yoga class on another day, for a total of 2 days.
This is worse than last week.

This week, I wanted to keep my calories around 1500 per day.
My best day logged 1186 calories and my worst day logged 3050 calories.
My average calories, per day, for the week, were 1849.  
This is worse than last week.

On a scale from 1-10, with 10 being a complete success with no regrets, I would give Oct 12th-Oct 17th, a ranking of 5.  I am okay with the exercise for the week (and I LOVED the yoga class) but my eating was pretty terrible.

Sunday, Oct 17

Another funky day...

I made buttermilk pancakes for breakfast (est. 400c, with syrup)

No snacks

For dinner, I made roast chicken, onion roasted potatoes, roasted carrots, a side salad, and cornbread.  I also had a cup of sweet coffee with a piece of lemon cake.  Estimated calories: 1500

Estimated calories: 1900c

Saturday, Oct 16

A funky day, eating wise, that was high calorie :(

No Breakfast

Lunch: Mexican food (cheese flautas, rice & beans, margarita) estimate: 1000c

No Snacks

Dinner: 2 slices cheese pizza, piece of tres leche cake (I know...)  estimate: 1000c

estimate: 2000c

Friday, October 15, 2010

Friday, Oct 15

No Breakfast
Snack: 130c
Lunch: 300c
Pre-Workout Snack: 100c
Post-Workout Snack: 100c
Dinner: 770c

Total: 1400c

Workout: 55m Ashtanga Yoga class (burned 500c)

Thursday, October 14, 2010

Thursday, 10/14

No Breakfast
Lunch: 386
No snacks
Dinner: Went to TexMex.  Had a house salad with shrimp and ranch dressing.  Based on the nutritional info available for Chili's where the salad is similar, I'm guessing about 500 calories.  Had a scoop of chocolate ice cream and coffee for dessert.  Guestimating about 300 calories.

Total: 1186

I still feel horrible about yesterday.  Trying not to dwell on it, but it's hard.

Wednesday night follow up

Dinner was only 450 calories but then I screwed the pooch at a function and packed in (at least) 1500-1800 calories in junk.  I'm so disappointed in myself.

Estimate for Wed: 3050

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Wednesday, 10/13

B: 200
S: 100
L: 500

Tuesday, 10/12

B: 300c
L: 270c
S: 350c
D: 475c
S: 300c


Tuesday, October 12, 2010

The Week in Review, 10/4-10/11/10

I started out blogging with the scale reading: 238lbs
As of this morning, the scale reads: 234lbs
Total Weight Lost: 4lbs

I started out the week hoping to do at least 1 day of exercise.
This week, I ran, walked, and biked, over 4 days.

This week, I wanted to keep my calories around 1500 per day.
My best day logged 1355 calories and my worst day logged 2125 calories.
My average calories, per day, for the week, were 1691.

On a scale from 1-10, with 10 being a complete success with no regrets, I would give Oct 4th-Oct 11th, a ranking of 7.  I am happy with my exercise and weight loss.  I feel that I could do better with my calories (even though I know I am doing MUCH better than I was before I was counting calories and watching my intake).

Monday, October 11, 2010

Monday, 10/11

Back on the wagon...

Breakfast:  I'm out of milk, so... no shake :(  But, I did enjoy my tasty treat!  2 eggs (fried with Pam spray) (140c), 2 pieces of vegetarian "bacon" (60c), and 2 pieces of WW bread, toasted, with 2/3tsp "buttery spread" (110c).  So, all together 300 calories.  And it was delicious and very filling!

Lunch: Tuna sandwich (100c plus 50c for mayo plus 10c for minced onion) on WW bread (90c), a diet cherry Dr Pepper (0c), and a 100c pack of choc covered pretzels (100c).  Grand total...300 calories!  And, again, as with breakfast, it was delicious and very filling.

I'm doing some light housework now before I feed the kid lunch, bathe them, and play with them.  I'm hoping to get a run in tonight with Sarah.  We shall see!  I loved when Peter dropped us off and we ran home.  It gave us the impetus to do the full 3 miles, since we had to get back home anyway!

Mmmm.... What will I do with my other 900 calories for the day... ;)

Edit@ 8:14pm
Feeling pretty good about the day still.  I was hungry mid-day so I had a HC meal (230c) and a piece of pumpkin bread (not sure about the calories- I'll guess 150?).  So about 380c.  Then, I had a skinny pumpkin latte  (181c for the milk, none for the espresso, and 49 for the flavoring, so 230c).  For dinner, I had stirfry over rice and vegan black pepper steak. (410c).  For dessert, a WW carrot cake (90c), so 500c total.

That brings my total for the day to 1710, about 210 more than I'd like, but still a good place.  Especially since I walked to the store (140c burned) and then Sarah & I jogged for a half hour (about 2.25-2.5 miles, I'm guessing in distance, but whatever the distance, we burned about 372 calories), so I burned about 512 calories!  Woo Hoo!  (I get my calories burned from this site; it's pretty awesome.)

All in all, I'm happy with the day!  On to tomorrow!!

Sunday, October 10, 2010

If I slipped...

...then today I fell...

I dont even know calories, but here's what I ate.

Salmon eggs benedict (1000c???)
Small roast beef sandwich, 4 slices of pita & 2 crostini with hummus and crab dip (Christening luncheon)
Small portobella rueben
2oz sugar free icecream on sugar cone
1 caramel

Tomorrow will be better.  It WILL be...

Saturday, October 9, 2010

Slipped From the Wagon...

So, last night...  I wanted/needed/whoknowswhat a snack...  So I ate a 100 calorie chocolate covered pretzel pack... Still wanted more... So a WW cake at 90 calories... Still more... Finally a frozen fruit pop at 80 calories and I decided that, even though I wanted more, I'd just packed in nearly 300 calories and really needed to go to bed.  I feel terrible.  But today... Well... It's a new day.

I made pancakes this morning: pumpkin walnut.  And they were delicious.  One serving (4 small pancakes) packed 390 calories and the 1/8 cup of maple syrup (although there was plenty left on my plate because I'm not a huge syrup eater) added another 100 calories, so 490, minus a few for not eating all the syrup.  Then, 5 hours later, I had lunch, a HC frozen meal (delicious, I tell you!) for 220 calories and, to satisfy that nagging sweet tooth, a SF bar that, I swear, reminds me of a Butterfinger candybar, just in a much smaller version!  And, best of all, it's only 100 calories.  And a diet cherry Dr Pepper.  So, my breakdown for today looks like:
Breakfast: 490 calories
Lunch: 320 calories

Since I've been trying to keep my caloric intake around 1500, that gives me about 690 calories for the rest of the day.  One of the lower calorie dinners and a snack, and that pretty much finishes me off!  But, that's okay.  This is a journey.  And a process.  And I've got a lot- A LOT- to learn.

And now.. to step on the scale for my daily weigh in... Ugh...

Updated at 9:54pm: In good news, my scale read the same thing yesterday's read, which was 234.5.  In bad news, we went to Elevation Burger around 4pm.  I absolutely love EB and, while I tried to do good, I still packed in a burger and fries.   I'm estimated about 550 calories for the burger and the fries (thank you, olive oil) at 200.  It may be under estimating, but I'm thinking about 750 (easy) for dinner (I had a Coke Zero, so that helped, I suppose).  That takes me over 1500, but what really does it is the fact that I just ate a second dinner because I was hungry!  I had a HC frozen meal for 260c plus a WW dessert cake for 80c.  Funtimes.

Oh, yeah, and my waist measures 41 inches and my hips 51 inches.  How did I ever let myself get this fat?

Friday, October 8, 2010

Friday, Oct 8th

SF Shake: 200c
Tuna salad on english muffin and 8oz unsweetened iced tea: 275c
WW snackcake: 80c
Edit@3:55pm- Snack Pack: 100c
Edit@6:29- Milkshake made with sugar-free butter pecan ice cream, approx 600 calories

Took the kids on a walk to the supermarket and back: 140 calories burned

Okay, so I totally bombed today.  Feeling slightly depressed about it.  I havent even had dinner and, already, I've had 1255 calories.  If I add a regular dinner of 600 or so calories to that, I'm looking at over 1800 calories- EEK!  And I'd been so good!  I'm bummed :(

But, in good news, I stepped on the scale and it read 234.5 this morning.  While it will probably be higher tomorrow because of my ice cream slip up, it was nice for today. 

Edited@7:17pm: Peter encouraged me to go for a bike ride to lift my spirits- and it totally worked!  Half an hour at 10mph (so, roughly, a 5 mile ride) burned 300 calories!  I'm happy with that!  

Dinner: White Clam Pasta and Garlic Bread: 600c