Wednesday, July 18, 2012

Day 2

Well, day 2 went fairly well (and day 3 saw me at 186, so amen for that).

I ate decently, and logged a total of 1970 calories (even with lamb biryani and chocolate cake); I burned 200 calories with a short run, so that brought the net to 1770 calories.  Yay for me!

Monday, July 16, 2012


I have a confession to make, and it's one I'm not happy about.

A year ago, I was down to about 165.  Today? Not so much.  Over the weekend, I topped the scale at 190. Nowhere near 251, but still, not a happy place to be. My 'happy spot' is 165-175, and I'd love to see if 150-160 could be a happy place, but I havent managed that yet.

Have I mentioned that I'm pissed off?

The problem still surrounds 'emotional eating' and making excuses for bad behavior. That has led me to having my size 8s feel too tight to wear comfortably, and I'm not willing to go back to the double digits so, thankfully with the help of a good blogger turned IRL friend, J, I am trying to get myself together.

It's a combo of things. There's my MHB work which brings back memories sometimes that are easily held at bay by eating (awful, but true)... There's the growing up of Bobby and Maya, which has me sneaking a bite of leftover stuff here or there (more here and there, to be honest)... My marriage is in a good place, so that is a help.  But, overall, there are times where I feel out of sync and use food almost as a self punishment.

I know this.  I know it and I have to change.

I've made the choices that got me here, and I can continue to make better choices. But the bad choices are just so much easier!

J and I have decided to text each other when we eat/exercise as a way to be held accountable. So far, day 1, it's helping me. ALOT. Knowing that I have her to go to, both when I'm having a bad moment for encouragement but also as a positive example for her bad moments, makes me feel supported as well as a supporter. I feel more in control. It's a good thing.

This morning was a great morning, food wise.  I ate a healthy, in portion breakfast (whole grain cheerios with bluberries and unsweetened almond milk plus tea), followed by a nice snack during playgroup (small snack cake, coffee) and lunch (grapes, chips, and a turkey and cheese sandwich), for a grand total of less than 700 calories. I think that's been breakfast recently, so I'm pretty happy. The scale registered 189.5 today (better than the 190 but still no 175, which I'm putting as the high side of acceptable).

Sometimes I feel like an alcoholic; it's just that food is my booze of choice. So, one day at a time... One day... One...

EDIT @ 7:26pm:
Afternoon Snack: scone and jam (est. 350c)
Afternoon Snack: cheese stick and turkey (130c)
Dinner: garlic bread (150c), white clam sauce pasta (300c), stuffed clams (300c)
Total: 1930c

This is over my 1700 target; the night is young.  Maybe I'll get in a 2-3 mile run after dinner to loose 300 or so calories from the day...

EDIT @ 8:40
Ran 2.533 miles in 23:30 (a 6.4mph pace), burned 340 calories
NET for the day: 1590 calories

Sunday, April 22, 2012

Images of Me...

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Sunday, February 12, 2012

Oh My...Cookies!

(originally posted here)

Made these this afternoon... Oh My Deliciousness! I modified the recipe for Peanut Butter and Jelly Cookies from The Vegan Table (page 159, for those interested).

Vegan (Crunchy) Almond Butter and (Cherry) Preserves Cookies

75g coconut butter (about 1/3 cup)
1/2c light brown sugar
1/2c crunchy almond butter
2tbsp unsweetened almond milk
1tsp vanilla extract
3/4 cup all purpose flour
1/2 cup whole wheat all purpose flour
3/4 tsp baking powder
2tbsp cherry preserves

Preheat oven to 375. Spray a cookie sheet with non-stick spray.

Beat together coconut butter, brown sugar, almond butter, almond milk, and vanilla.

Mix flours and baking powder in a bowl. Slowly beat into the wet ingredients.

Make 20 balls with the dough. (I cook 2 rounds of 10 balls each). Using your thumb, make an indentation in the cookie balls as you are flattening them. Place them on the baking sheet and spoon in 1/4 tsp of cherry preserves into the thumb indentation.

Bake for 10 minutes at 375. Cool on the rack for 2 minutes before moving to a cooling rack. Cool for 5 minutes before eating.

20 cookies at 115 calories each

Monday, February 6, 2012


Date: 30th
Weight: 174
Total Calories: 2525
Exercise: ---

Date: 31st
Weight: 174
Total Calories: 2100
Exercise: run (2m)
Date: 1st
Weight: 173.5
Total Calories: 2520
Exercise: run (4m)
Date: 2nd
Weight: 173
Total Calories: 2920
Exercise: ---
Date: 3rd
Weight: 172
Total Calories: 2285
Exercise: ---
Date: 4th
Weight: 173
Total Calories: 2225
Exercise: run (6m)
Date: 5th
Weight: 172.5
Total Calories: 1850
Exercise: run (3m)

Total Calories for the week goal: 11,900
Total Calories for the week: 16,425
Difference: +4525

Monday, January 30, 2012

Jan 23-29, 2012

Date: 23rd
Weight: 178
Total Calories: 1615
Exercise:  run (25min, 2.5m)

Date: 24th
Weight: 176.5
Total Calories: 1700
Exercise: run (12min, 1m)

Date: 25th
Weight: 176
Total Calories: 1690
Exercise: run (40min, 3.5m)

Date: 26th
Weight: 176.5
Total Calories: 1695
Exercise: run (20min, 2m)

Date: 27th
Weight: 175.5
Total Calories: 4565
Exercise: none

Date: 28th
Weight: 176
Total Calories: 2115
Exercise: run (50min, 5m)

Date: 29th
Weight: 175
Total Calories: 2280
Exercise: none

Total Calories for the week goal: 11,900
Total Calories for the week: 15,6660
Difference: +3760

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Jan 16-22, 2012

I've been a little lax.  I hear you.  I'm happy to report that my lifestyle hasnt changed my weight but, at the same time, I've got that last 25-30 pounds that I still want to drop.  Logging in to record stuff is just too much it seems.  But I found a great book on the bargain table at B&N that is basically my blog in a nutshell!  So I'm recording by hand and, although I wont put in every thing I eat, I can at least keep a log of calories in by day and, hopefully, see the final journey of this extra weight!

Date: 16th
Weight: 178
Total Calories: 2290
Exercise: yoga (20 minutes)

Date: 17th
Weight: 179
Total Calories: 1730
Exercise: run (2 miles)

Date: 18th
Weight: 177
Total Calories: 2790
Exercise: yoga (20 minutes)

Date: 19th
Weight: 179
Total Calories: 1835
Exercise: yoga (60 minutes)

Date: 20th
Weight: 179
Total Calories: 1845
Exercise: run (3.5 miles)

Date: 21st
Weight: 176
Total Calories: 1840
Exercise: yoga (30 minutes)

Date: 22nd
Total Calories: 2195
Exercise:run (2 miles)

Total Calories for the week goal: 11,900
Total Calories for the week: 14,545
Difference: +2645